8 posts tagged “xiao wen”

Took Xiao Wen to the vet this morning, he's had a runny eye for over a week and I was getting concerned.  He has seasonal allergies which lead to little bald spots (heaven forbid I have a "normal" pet) but this didn't seem to get any better with doses of Benadryl.

My vet did a corneal stain at first to make sure there wasn't a damage to his eye, seemed like an allergy problem to her too but it was odd that it only happened in one of his eyes.  Turns out he has a clogged tear duct brought on by his allergies.  He howled the entire way to the vet and back, poor thing...  he's got some eye drops and will hopefully be all perked up in a couple days.

I haven't put any eye drops in, I'm going to try before I leave for work this morning - I'm certain he is not going to appreciate the attention!

I think that I may in fact be the most self-absorbed person in the world, and in spite of feeling kind of guilty about it, I can't seem to help myself.  I just want to wallow in my own self-pity and have an audience surround me, enthralled by the various trials of my life.

I fell off the Weight Watchers wagon.  I gained 6 lbs.  I feel like a fat, disgusting excuse for a human being, even in the pretty new bra and underwear that I bought myself yesterday in an attempt to feel less fat and disgusting.

I alternately miss and hate my parents.

I have a wonderful vocabulary and a good sense of humor.  I have a sincere laugh.  I slide into friendships easily.  I am loyal.  I am well-read in a variety of subjects.  I love Faulkner and Hesse.  I like philosophy.  I am extremely intelligent.

I am also horribly depressed.  I use people and then throw them away because I need to get rid of them before they get rid of me.  I am burdensome.  I get angry at inappropriate times and often refuse to say that I'm sorry, even when I know I'm wrong.  I can't seem to do anything with my life.  I have dropped out of college twice.

I blame a lot of things on my condition.  Sometimes I'm afraid that it's not a disorder, and that everything bad is my real personality and all the good things are a complete fake.

I don't think anybody but my pets will ever truly love me and forgive me for all the bad things.

Xiao Wen came home.  Earlier today I took a nap with Wendy and Paxil.  I take joy in the fact that Maybel tolerates other people but genuinely likes me.

Maybel and I have been together for 8 years.  My relationship with her is the best relationship I have ever had, period.

Steve said that we should move to his place when my house gets foreclosed.  Maybe he's just humoring me, but I suspect I might end up doing it anyway.  I think I like him more than he likes me.

I want to be one of those people who decorates their home... and it's actually cute.  My stuff has lots of cute potential, but it's not organized very well, it's junky, and plus to make it worse I'm a bit of a slob.  Maybe with my next relocation I'll be able to trim a lot of the non-cute or non-me stuff.  When people come to my house (which admittedly is only a few times a year) I want them to think wow, Adrienne is so artsy and bohemian, just LOOK at all those neat toys and doodads and rat items!  If only we could be so original and witty like her.

Okay I don't really feel that way about the last bit, but I would like to have a neat-o place.  My things can be cute if I just work on it, but I don't want to put forth the effort.

Step 1 might be to find a place with no tile in the living room.  In theory it's easy to sweep and maintain... but when you track stuff onto tile, you've basically just set it free to travel your whole home.  When your cats shed on tile, they produce mini-cats made out of hair, who then proceed to wander around on their own and reproduce.  I have an infestation of these cats.  I can't seem to get rid of them, because who really has time to move all of their furniture every day to eradicate them?  And if you miss a day, it's like you never did anything at all.

I love my cats Very Very Much, have I mentioned that?  When I woke up this morning, every member of my household was in bed with me!  Steve was taking up half the bed, then the 4 cats and I shared the other half.  As soon as they saw me stir and realized this was an opportunity for food, they all began acting up to get attention (the cats, not Steve).  You can see their little faces so earnestly shouting get-up-get-up-get-up.. omg mom we're gonna starve to death... look how cute we are... look how hungry we are... look I can barely stand on my own because I'm soooo weak (it's certainly not from that extra layer of blubber all my cats quickly acquire)...

Oh well, they're worth it.  After I fed the cats I gave the hamsters some grapes (when are these things moving out, I wonder).

I can't seem to bring this post to a logical close.  How about, I need to leave for work in 30 minutes and I'm unshowered and undressed?  That's pretty good.

I'm eating some this morning for breakfast.  Been doing that a lot lately, and often for lunch too.  Good thing it was buy one get one free this week!

Steve's really depressed again... last night I went and got Panera as kind of a treat since I'm too broke to eat out much.  I'm not sure if it made him feel any better or not, but at least I really enjoyed my sandwich.

Nelina has a court date on Monday and thank god I found somebody to cover for me at work.  Pretty sure I'm taking the whole day off, although I promised the tech who is coming in that I'd call when we were done to see if she wanted to skate out or not.

Xiao Wen is being the biggest brat ever, he's started to put his feet in his water fountain (yes, they have their own fountain) and throw water on the floor.  Grrrrrrrr.  It just occured to me that I haven't mentioned Maybel, Paxil, or Wendy lately.  They're all doing well and haven't done anything irritating enough to merit a write-up here.

I think I'm keeping it together pretty well, all things considered.  My nightmare from yesterday turned out to not be true, and hopefully I won't have any more of them for at least a little while.

Sigh... I just had to call out of work again because I am crazy.  I told Larry last week that I didn't think I could work with the intern anymore, it's really stressing me out because he screws everything up and I get incredibly tense when he gets anywhere near me (I had to file a sexual harassment complaint against him).  Maybe I could handle the fact that he's incompetent or the fact that he's a lecher, but apparently when you put those two things together it makes me have overwhelming anxiety problems.

Last night I had already gone to bed but was tossing and turning from a bad headache... I came downstairs to get some medicine for my aching head and ended up going through some anxiety again.  I got that pukey, "I can't breathe" feeling and was up until 5am talking to Kenny.  I feel guilty because I know he's worried about me, but I can't seem to get this under control.  I am not normal and it's so difficult to try and keep my errant thoughts under control.  The only positive I can see is that I've not been having the desire to cut myself anymore when I freak out, and that had been a strong compulsion even up to a few months ago.  Hopefully I'm finally over that; I promised Kenny when we got married that I wouldn't do it anymore and I've stuck by my word, although admittedly at times it was kinda difficult.

I called to tell Arun that I didn't think I'd be able to come in... the intern answered the phone and my chest started to get all tight again.  Then I -knew- that I couldn't go in, at least certainly not feeling the way that I do now.  I don't like how this problem is taking over my life, I want to be a reliable employee and not a weirdo that can't show up because my body's fear response is triggered.  Blah.

In totally unrelated news, Xiao Wen stayed downstairs almost all night!  I've been bringing him downstairs to try and acclimate him to being outside of my room, generally he stays for an hour or so and then bolts back under my bed.  Last night he slept on the couch for a long time and was fairly hospitable with the other cats (even allowing Wendy to come groom him, and it probably takes a lot of fortitude to have Wendy stick her tongue in your ear).  I don't think he'll be coming downstairs on his own yet, but at least he's starting to learn that it's okay.  For a long time he sat in Jessicka's lap and let her feed him treats - what a horrid life he has, right? - and even came to beg food from Kenny.  I don't exactly want him to be a food whore, but it's nice to see him acting like a normal cat.  Plus, it was pretty cute to see Xiao Wen and Paxil vying for Kenny's attention as soon as a bag of Doritos got opened.

I saw this website mentioned on CNN.  I felt it was worth sharing.

So we have officially made the $150 transition from feral cat to pet... Xiao Wen went to the vet today!  I was impressed at how well he handled himself - I warned the vet tech that he might bite if scared, but he remained calm throughout and was a very well-behaved cat.  He tested FelV/FIV negative (yay!) and had no worms or fleas.  He's been declawed on the front (people can be such assholes) but has also been neutered, and the only problem he had at all was 2 abcesses on his driver side shoulder.  Dr. Runnfeldt opened up both abcesses (Xiao Wen took it like a champ) and now I've got antibiotics to give him for the next week as a precaution.

Our original intent was to get Xiao Wen used to being in the house, and then slowly start limiting his outside time, but at the sight of his open wounds I just couldn't bring myself to let him go out and risk infection.  He's isolated in my room right now, and was very calm when I let him out of the pet carrier.  Apparently he'd forgiven us for taking him to the vet, because he was purring and doing figure 8s around my ankles. :-)

I don't think he'll have any issues getting along with Paxil, Wendy, or Maybel, but Zazuu has already decided that she does NOT like this new boy who looks so much like her.  She even tried to sneak into my bedroom to hiss at the "intruder"!  Once she realizes that she is still first in Kenny's heart, I'm sure she'll adjust fine, and hopefully that happens soon so she doesn't start urinating on all my stuff again.

I let them know at the animal hospital that Xiao Wen is up for adoption, as much as I would love to keep him I think he'd be happiest in a home with fewer cats than I have.  He thrives on personal attention, and that is hard to do when you've got 5 cats running around your house!  Still, this is a better situation for him than being outside and possibly getting hurt, so Kenny and I already agreed that we'll keep Xiao Wen forever if need be.  I know that we are total suckers for animals, but I just wouldn't be true to myself if I wasn't doing my best to take care of any critter that crosses paths with me.

It's hard to believe that 3 months ago, Xiao Wen wouldn't even let a person near him, and now he comes running to have his ears rubbed and his chin scratched. :-)  I'm so happy, I know I haven't done anything to change the world on a grand scale but at least we've definitely changed Xiao Wen's life for the better. :-)

Xiao Wen had a vet appointment this morning to get his shots and a general check-up... but alas, he had other plans.  He was fairly docile when I tried to put him into the pet carrier - just mostly did the whole "stick out the arms and wave them wildly" bit, but it was enough that I couldn't get him into it by myself. :-(  Now he's mad at me and won't let me near him... I made another appointment for a week from now, so I have until then to win myself back into his good graces. :-)  He's been expressing interest in coming inside with me, but unfortunately I don't have any good way of explaining to him that my house is off-limits until he's tested for FelV/FIV and gets a bunch of vaccines.

Maybe next week I'll distract him with some wet cat food... I've never known a cat that wouldn't whore themselves out for that. :-)

I was so thrilled last night when I went outside to feed Xiao Wen... and she came right up to me!!  Usually she hangs back and won't get closer than 2-3 feet, but yesterday she just waltzed right up and commenced eating.  She even let me pet her some, which made me so happy!  I don't know if she was just unusually hungry and decided I was worth tolerating or what, but either way I was thrilled.

Tonight is Morrissey night!  Hooray!  I took the day off work so I'll be running various errands (blah) and going to the therapist (meh) today, but tonight will be all about having fun. :-)

I don't think I mentioned it, but I got my hair cut the other day... it is Very Short.  I really like it, it's so much cooler (not in a fashion sense, but in a my-head-doesn't-sweat sense) and it actually dries on its own in under 4 hours.  I had around 11 inches of hair cut off, which I donated to Locks of Love.  I think they are a very worthy and unique organization, so I hope my hair goes to make bangs for someone or whatever. :-)