2 posts tagged “coffee”

So I've got this kick-ass plan.  I'm going to design a roller coaster that's patterned after my own mood swings!  It'll go from breezy loops to intense pants-wetting drops with no warning.  I wonder how much Islands of Adventure would pay me to buy the design for my "Bipolar Coaster"?  I'm funna be rich!
So as I'm sure you've conjectured, I'm still having major mood issues.  I felt normal on Saturday, but then spent Saturday night sobbing onto my PS2 controller.  I woke up early on Sunday and managed to do some minor household tasks, but after just loading the dishwasher and starting a load of clothes, I was completely wiped out.  Kenny and I had a long heart-to-heart on Sunday about why I feel like I'm a failure in virtually every aspect of my life... he questioned if maybe I needed to work a little bit less so that I could be at home more relaxing, but I sincerely don't think that would help.  Work is the only place where I don't feel like a complete screwup.  After our talk, Kenny went and cleaned my car for me - the context being that I told him I'd been trying to do it for a month and just couldn't muster up the energy.  He's wonderful, and I have no clue how I got so freaking lucky...
I finally made an appointment with my doctor today; I'll be going on Friday to discuss my potential onset of diabetes.  When my dad first mentioned it as a possibility for why I'm having these urinary issues, I didn't really think much of it.  I mean, I'm 26!  But I've talked to some other people (including a pharmacist who has diabetes) and quite a few expressed the same concern.  Blah.  What the hell, is this the year that my entire body just shuts down on me?
I saw Jean-Paul and his daughter last week... it was so nice to spend time with him. :-)  I feel like I have a level of intimacy with him that isn't really matched by any of my other friends, by pure virtue of time.  I've known him half of my life now.  He seemed so much more relaxed and jovial than I've seen him in a long time, which really made me happy - he deserves to feel that way.  The only downside to the visit is that I never managed to get Amelie to say "my daddy is on probation" even after a lot of coaxing... maybe next time. :-D
I've got to head to work in a few minutes and I'll never make it out the door if I don't down a few cups of coffee first.

I had a little breakdown at work yesterday... couldn't even drive myself home, Kenny and Mike had to come pick me up.  I can only imagine how that conversation must have gone between the two of them when I called and told Kenny I needed rescued... "Hey Mike, I need to go to Dunn Ave. to pick up Adrienne, and by the way you're coming to drive her car home." "Oh, is she okay?" "No, she's crazy..."

I'm going to see the doctor today, I hope I am fixable. :-(  I really thought that the Effexor was solving all my problems but apparently there is a crack in my fortress somewhere.  I wonder if I need an antipsychotic.  I woke up at 3AM today and couldn't go back to sleep... which means for once, I actually managed to call my mom at a decent (her time) hour.  I'm so lucky that she puts up with my rantings.  Without her and Kenny to tell me that I'm going to be okay, I don't know how I could deal with the recurrent nutsiness of me.

Don't ever drink the Tarrazu type of coffee from Starbucks.  Mike brought some home from work, and I swear it tastes like a shoe store.  Bleah.